full circle incomplete

... dont know who is a friend... who is WITH me in my journey.. or will i keep looking for someone to "be with me" while i keep travelling alone ...

life ..they say..comes back a full circle... and this suddenly robs me of all the possible excitement... i guess the circle never completes itself... and when it does... well... may be u dont feel its an end... but its an infinite begining....

whtever... finding peace in transcendental thoughts while real life is sucking the soul out of ur listless body... no motivation to be greedy for happiness.... and i guess that keeps me going... NO GREED FOR HAPPINESS.... ain't that a good feeling..!! :)

when laughter becomes just a twitching of a certain number of facial muscles and not the existence of a sparkling soulful eye.... one tends to get lonely....

...no cure for this...

concerned!

...heres an old thought revisited...

there are very few things more crappy than superficial concern....

..although the concerned may never realise, but more often than not, the "concernee" (yes sweethearts.. i have coined that word just now and it implies the person for whom the "concerned" is concerned) ... so... the concernee, almost always looks through it...

i rest my case!

cheers and trumpets...

me

further in a certain direction

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11:06 PM 7/3/2001
There are certain unquestionable rules that must be created simply to drive your life and help you take decisions. They NEED NOT have a reason. They are like that arbitrary starting point on your life's infinite graph sheet which only creates a reference for you to start plotting the rest of your life's graph.
"Liquor is bad and must be avoided at all costs" is possibly one such rule.

3:52 PM 12/6/2003
i am not learning... i seek more of the same... i feel as if things are being forced down my throat by myself... like that nasty dry torrid taste of liquor that gives me a high i never craved for... much smaller things in life give me bigger highs.... ya i know.... i might be just not lucky anymore

12:03 AM 6/8/2006
another tight day.. have not slept much since the last 72 hours... hectic flight schedules and pending work in office when u r back... drains you.. dont really enjoy this on a saturday night.. but then... once in while being dedicated to your company helps... u learn stuff urself....
a drink wud do me so much good... and may be a few more... ;)
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i still question the rules!


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a lost note

i wake up...rubbing my eyes,...looking around ..searching for something again....
yet another day. yet another illusion to be broken...
pessimist is not something i am...
hope is something i hold on to...but when where will i ever find that peace...
i get lost with words these days....
same familiar drifting of thoughts....
hope these thoughts touch u some day


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touched... forever .