an itchy incident....

What does it feel like to hurt??… and to feel helpless about it?!?!… what does it feel like to be unable to stop coughing for hours at a stretch…

waking up at 3 am with a mild cough and waking up every time u are about to fall asleep… then getting restless and getting out of the bed so that u are able to cough comfortably and get it over with… and then… slowly realizing that its getting severe with every thoracic jolt needed to help release that itching thing stuck to the insides of your throat … u want to reach out with ur fingers and scrape it off but u cant… slowly the cough becomes painful... as if u have been scratching a rash so long that by now the skin has begun to scrape off… now just the anticipation of the next cough hurts… its 6 am and u know the shops wont open for another 3 hours…

u make tea with an extra dose of cardamom and black pepper…. U manage to take one sip without coughing and another… u begin to feel relaxed… and another sip… and then suddenly u begin to feel the monster itch rise slowly in ur throat again… and this time ur muscles involuntarily push beyond u can manage and u puke out the 3 sips u had along with bits of last nights digested food…. And u have this strange feeling that some of that itchy monster has also found its way out… u feel relaxed… much better.. may be this is it… u finish the tea comfortably… its 7 am… u get ready for office…

U reach office by 8… the train travel has got u coughing a lil bit again… but u ignore.. u feel comfortable that the puke took care of it all… and then u pass thru this dusty road and enter an office that is yet to be dusted… …

… no… not again.. its rising again… this time u r tired of it… u let it come.. with as much force as it wud wish… u have given up… another hour to go before the bendryl life drug can be made available… u agonise and wait.. warm water & salt.. do something,.,. look for the first aid kit.. someone take money and go to the shop as soon as its 9….

Time passes … finally u r holding the benedryl bottle in ur hand… u gulp it straight from the bottle.. u cherish the feeling.. it tastes like heaven…


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ya… 3 hrs since then and not a single rising itch monster feeling!! … so I was able to concentrate on writing :)

cheers!

from rhetoric to traffic jams... ADAPTABILITY

theres a strange kind of challenge in being able to drift your mind from the most critical... to the ignorable & small... and here i refer to the level of importance of the subject or thot n nothing else.. the challenge of thinking macro, n rethinking if the same would have a relevant interpretation at a micro level!!... and just to make life a little worse.. realising the irrelevance of the most critical macro thots at the micro level...

if life is bigger.. bigger than you (as rem wud put it;) ) then why do we remain engrossed in the complications of the irrelevant nitty gritty's of life.... "Small issues are irritants and hamper efficient working of the human mind"...

why do i call it a strange challenge?.. imagine the so called absent minded philosopher scientist Albert Einstein.. blissfully unaware of small issues like 'what if he keeps his car keys somewhere and forgets!!'... BIG DEAL... it shall be worked out somehow or the other.. but if he forgets a particular chain of thoughts while trying to work out a real life experiment to prove a particular concept that takes the general theory of relativity a step ahead so that time machines could be actually made... well.. thats a blooper!!...

so the challenge is for regular philosopher scientists like us.... we are neither lucky enuf to be absent minded like AE... nor, possibly, have given ourselves such strong high level goals to achieve, that ignoring the smaller issues becomes incidental...

here is my conclusion... (and its not mine :))...
...Educated men lay down broad general principles; uneducated men argue from common knowledge and draw obvious conclusions - Aristotle